I was wondering with myself some of the worst experiences that I had during this year and I decided to use this space just to put this kind of memories, in this case, bad memories. Today I'd like to bring some words about my last illusion of being loved. Sometimes you think that you are following the right way, the best one, but you're not! You give all that you can, all that you need to make the other person happy but...what do you receive? Nothing, just some words, just some excuses...I prefer the truth instead of pity and fear. I've never given so much love for anyone, never...I know I'm angry, missing her hugs, her kisses, her...just her presence...but it's not fair...definitely not! She didn't even try!!! She didn't give me the chance of showing her all my love...I didn't have time enough to prove how much I love her...that's really not fair. It's not indeed!!! But I'm recovering my energies, my pride, my life and my love for myself. Time cures everything and this time will be not different...but, sometimes, it doesn't...that's my main fear...I won't forget this moment... there's a big and black hole in my heart, in my soul...and it's being hard to fix. I want a medicine...right now!
